malynne's Blog
I love the summer. Why doesn't he?I am a gamer. A total geek in every way possible. I know a lot about computers, and find myself enamored of all things electronic. On the flip side, I take good care of myself. I eat very healthy, work out daily, and try to hydrate as much as possible. I do all of these things when it's too miserable to go outside. In the summer, my place is at the beach. My workouts are hiking and swimming. I live in the city, so I ADORE the big festivals. I feel like I've wasted the season if I'm not out adventuring every day that I possibly can. Now that you have a sense of where I stand, here is my frustration; This weekend was the first time that myself and my man had 2 days off in a row together. I was ridiculously excited. We planned to go to the fireworks on Saturday night with some friends, Pride on Sunday, and hit up the beach on Monday. I couldn't get a hold of him on Saturday, and it ended up that he was hanging out with one of his girlfriends while I was waiting at home all done up to go to the fireworks... I would have just gone without him, but I was worried. We did manage to make it to Pride on Sunday, and we spent all day downtown. I had a blast, and he did too. When Monday rolled around however, the most beautiful day of the weekend, he cancelled our plans, pleading that he had a ton of work that he needed to get done for Tuesday. I would have been totally fine with that, but I was unaware that his "ton of work" involved laying on the bed in his underwear with the blinds closed so as to shut out any natural light, playing Halo Reach for 8 hours straight, while I did laundry, cleaned the house, made all the meals, and went grocery shopping. Maybe the reason I'm so upset is our conflicting work schedules. I work 9-6 Tuesday to Saturday with an hour commute tacked on both ways, and he works 12:30-9:30 Monday to Saturday with a half hour commute. With those work hours, I'm out the door before he wakes up, and by the time he gets home, I'm already in bed. The only time we have to spend together is Sunday. All I want is to actually be able to spend time with him. Am I asking too much? Need to vent.Well, I'm back in BC now, from Saskatchewan. Everyone I know told me that it would be better medically to be here. In addition to that, everyone, my friends and family, had told me that they would be excited to have me back. Well, medically, since I've been here, I've been diagnosed with "Chronic Pain Syndrome" which has no cause and no cure, and I've been given up on in that field. I've been ignored by my friends and my siblings since getting here, and as I am currently unemployed, am living with my mother until I can figure something out. My partner who told me he would wait for me in Saskatchewan, and assured me that I would have a home to go back to once I got healthy again, has called it quits on me, and still not only has all my things, but has my cat as well, and refuses to even speak to me. When I was thinking about moving back for a while, my mom had offered up her place and told me she would take care of me for the duration of my medical crisis. Shortly after moving here, she sat me down and told me she did not believe that I was in pain, and that I needed to go out and get a job, and that once I had a job, I would be giving all of my money to her. I have been on antidepressants for a while now, and had to stop them abruptly as I am unable to afford to pay for prescription medications. I will not be making enough at any job I find around here (especially since I cannot work full time because of my condition) to move out on my own. I feel lost. Musing...I don't think those people who say that they go out of their way to help people or make people happy with no benefit to themselves have actually ever gone out their way to help someone or make someone happy.
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